My Greatest Teacher

Wisdom comes with experience
It's passed down from generation to generation
From mothers to daughters
From fathers to sons
I was blessed with a great teacher
What makes my father so great
Is it the countless number of times you helped me through tough times
Or is it the gifts you gave when you couldn't afford it
Maybe the beatings I recieved when I did something wrong
Was it when you told me to wipe myself off, stop crying, and be strong
The support you gave me
You believed I could do anything
Your Love
I know you care
Im sure anything I listed makes a good father but the most important thing was that you always been there
When I was little you were the first to put a ball in my hand
You taught me discipline with the end of your belt
Throughout my 19 years you always stressed an good education
You taught me things in life so in life I can win
I can remember you saying I want you to be a better man than me but I only wish to be half the man you are because thats more than most men
F.aithful A.lways there T.rustworthy H.onoring E.verloving R.ighteous S.upportive
I love you Pops

Emptiness

I look into your eyes, their so soft I could just fall asleep
Connected to each other through unspoken language
I lose my voice whenever our eyes meet
I lean closer awaiting your lips, the taste of chocolate mixed with heaven
Then I awake to my un-happiness, It was only a dream
Separation Is the only way to miss someone, thats what they said
Well Im missing her and I just want her back in my bed
What do you do when her smile freezes you
Her voice comforts you, her touch stops the world
Her eyes look into your soul and you get the feeling of completion
My heart hurts because she grew In me
Feelings I cant explain since then I havent been the same
Words arent the same, brightest colors are dull and I want only one light to shine
If I died today I would thank God just because I got to meet you for a lifetime

Soaring Without Wings

As i pray at night hoping that God answers my prayers
with alot on my mind this is when i share
I watched one of the strongest women I know be broken down piece by piece everyday
Not a change in her spirit and she had only good things to say
I remember when things were going bad my aunt would put on luther vandros
I knew when she had this on i shouldnt bother
her favorite song from him was dance with my father
And now i only pray that i can dance with my aunt
I would just wanna be around her for awhile
to touch her to hug her just to see her smile
to comfort her when she was in pain
a true warrior my aunty is the epitanomy of a strong women
i only ask why
the more i think about it the more i cry
i would have done anything i could
but i remember her saying shes not afraid to die so nobody else should
i hated seeing my auntie so weak
but now my minds at ease because she's now at peace
5 years shes been fighting cancer strong
but now the lord has called and its time to go home

Transparent to Your World

When all was looking grim and all i could turn to is me
It was like an angel fell out the sky and there was she
It happened all of a sudden
Her smile attracted me and her words persuaded me
Instead of being by myself that I turned into we
All night on the phone with the words she told
She saw right through me and had a peep hole into my soul
Due to prior ignorance with males she wasnt high in hope
She scarred real bad and never again wants to be hurt
But im just the person that would help her cope
With a smile like hers that was no reason to be sad
Yet I got to her too late because my timing was bad
But Im prepared to make her past disapear and her future shown
Because my friendship, my love is what im giving and im making it known
Happiness in your life you say I made a contribution
But me being closer to you was in my New Years resolution
You work too hard and deal with so much BS and I ask you why?
You deserve so much more, dont let opportunity pass you bye

I Cant Live Without

What makes a man is when he can admit to being wrong
when he can say i should have changed what i did or how i did it
but when a man's morals and standards are set he shouldnt see wrong in his action
I never understand how we get to this point
when were so right together we struggle with the little things
with this new adversity were facing its breaking us
Its undeniable that we should be together
were strong people through storms we sould be able to weather
even in the worse situation.... US.... we should be able to work it
just like the last piece of a puzzle we fit perfect
i never will give up on what i feel
we just have to keep putting more in we have to give
give understanding, patient, forgiveness
im not ready to stop loving you as GOD as my witness
thoughts running through my mind, my soul needs restoration
we need get back to the base of our relationship, communication
talk to me because keeping things in never solved anything
im ready to continue this new chapter so wateva its takes im ready to do
even when you dont want to say it always know I Love YOU

Missing You

Growing up I was only prepared for change and never giving up on the first try
Nobody told me with time I would have to see so many people goodbye
A wise man said what doesn't kill you makes you stronger
But when it hits so close to home where do you go to find the strength
I envy birds because its times where I just want to fly away
People think your first love is Mike or Crystal you meet when you're young at school
But you're born to your first love
They raise you until you know better and realize they ain't gone be there all your life
Things began to turn for the worse and the only thing you can do is cry
Knowing once they go a piece of you will die away with them
No more words need to be said where all you do is sigh
The pain gets worse where you begin to shut out all life
Time will only tell that nothing you say or do will make it right
Believe me I understand your pain BABE I'm here
Life without, will be so lonely and cold
Where the only thing on your mind will be seeing them again at the cross road
So much pain where you can only say why
Believe me, Its so hard to say goodbye

A Common Fate

And as the applauds stop and the good times becomes a blur
And I realize the curtain closing which brings about another un-opened door
The smile begins to fade and I can feel the pain and suffering near
A proud man like myself doesn't like to admit but challenges I know will end in disaster always brings about fear
The world designed to bring you happiness for seconds that then turn into stress that never tends to end
In a place where two ends never meet
You can fight for greatness but you cant fight against change
When most people are born dead, Is God the one to blame?
Without warning nightmares can become your home
You can only expect to die so why even morn
Tears are common, pain and suffering are like periods
What do you do when you have to open your door
Nothing that you are taught or that you learn in school will ever prepare you for anything
Be clear, people always say live life like you're dying
18 years of my life are gone and it just finally dawned on me
Black suit, expensive bed, tears, pain and suffering
Statements made that are very general
I can only go forward from this point
I open my door, never thought I would be late to my own funeral