I Cant Live Without

What makes a man is when he can admit to being wrong
when he can say i should have changed what i did or how i did it
but when a man's morals and standards are set he shouldnt see wrong in his action
I never understand how we get to this point
when were so right together we struggle with the little things
with this new adversity were facing its breaking us
Its undeniable that we should be together
were strong people through storms we sould be able to weather
even in the worse situation.... US.... we should be able to work it
just like the last piece of a puzzle we fit perfect
i never will give up on what i feel
we just have to keep putting more in we have to give
give understanding, patient, forgiveness
im not ready to stop loving you as GOD as my witness
thoughts running through my mind, my soul needs restoration
we need get back to the base of our relationship, communication
talk to me because keeping things in never solved anything
im ready to continue this new chapter so wateva its takes im ready to do
even when you dont want to say it always know I Love YOU

Missing You

Growing up I was only prepared for change and never giving up on the first try
Nobody told me with time I would have to see so many people goodbye
A wise man said what doesn't kill you makes you stronger
But when it hits so close to home where do you go to find the strength
I envy birds because its times where I just want to fly away
People think your first love is Mike or Crystal you meet when you're young at school
But you're born to your first love
They raise you until you know better and realize they ain't gone be there all your life
Things began to turn for the worse and the only thing you can do is cry
Knowing once they go a piece of you will die away with them
No more words need to be said where all you do is sigh
The pain gets worse where you begin to shut out all life
Time will only tell that nothing you say or do will make it right
Believe me I understand your pain BABE I'm here
Life without, will be so lonely and cold
Where the only thing on your mind will be seeing them again at the cross road
So much pain where you can only say why
Believe me, Its so hard to say goodbye

A Common Fate

And as the applauds stop and the good times becomes a blur
And I realize the curtain closing which brings about another un-opened door
The smile begins to fade and I can feel the pain and suffering near
A proud man like myself doesn't like to admit but challenges I know will end in disaster always brings about fear
The world designed to bring you happiness for seconds that then turn into stress that never tends to end
In a place where two ends never meet
You can fight for greatness but you cant fight against change
When most people are born dead, Is God the one to blame?
Without warning nightmares can become your home
You can only expect to die so why even morn
Tears are common, pain and suffering are like periods
What do you do when you have to open your door
Nothing that you are taught or that you learn in school will ever prepare you for anything
Be clear, people always say live life like you're dying
18 years of my life are gone and it just finally dawned on me
Black suit, expensive bed, tears, pain and suffering
Statements made that are very general
I can only go forward from this point
I open my door, never thought I would be late to my own funeral

God's Gift To Man

Since the beginning of time man has always had women
For some people for a man to be with women is hard to believe
But just like God and his creation there is no Adam without Eve
Even being second in line women were always the stronger of the two
That's why God deemed them to conceive
And for everyman somewhere out there , theirs a good wife
I feel sorry for all without because women brings purpose to a man's life
If not them then who will we protect
If not them then who will we provide for
If not them then who will we long to see
The first teacher of child so If not them where would this world be
But men disrespect the privilege to live among angels without wings
We abuse their gift and leave them broken down only to enjoy what we call flings
We insult them by buying flowers on a Valentines day
Or take them out on our anniversary
When the things we admire about them occasionally never leave them on a regular day
I devote 365 days to women because in my life they come first
WOMEN; Watchers Over Men and Even Nature
That's why they call this planet mother earth
The connection between a child and its mother will always be apart of them since birth
Philosophers will always be puzzled and men will never understand a women's worth

You're Mine

I could never understand a womens worth until the day I lost you
The moment we were done
Thats when I realized I need to stop playing because you were always my only one
Never in a lifetime I thought that I would cross paths with someone so unique
So indescrible
Smile just like a picture perfect moment
Beauty so graceful
Voice like heavens music
Touch that connected my heart with your heart beat
And everytime youre around I get so weak
Words cant describe my feelings so I have a hard time expressing what I have to say
But be clear because this isnt just Another Valentines day
Everything in my future that I want to accomplish, I want you to be their too
Never again will I let you slip away
My minds been made up and I want you in my life to stay
Theres only one more thing I need to do
Im showing this much affection because I love you
-Happy Valentines Day

HER Finding Myself

My thing is when I have problems I put on my music and get into a zone
Im the kind of person that puts a smile on someone elses face when I cant put one on my own
And you were another that I made smile
I did whatever It would take
Maybe thats why we've been together 1 year, 9 months, and a day
But you werent jus another
Your touch went deeper than skin
My animal instincts took over thats why you say Im always proctecting
But after the first hello I could feel our souls connecting
The happiness I brought others but there was no other that could bring me the same
This curse I call it was like a tease by God that was a torment
Until you appeared in my life
Your name itself brings me a heart warming moment
And the more and more you do the little things that mean so much to me
I start to realize my love thats been locked inside, you had the key
And with every new chapter of our life its like our love restarts
Finally something I can look forward to
Till death do us part

Falling Apart

Letting go my love is easier said then done
It's not like you can tell your heart to stop
Starting to figure out why death is so easy
We came undone without reason
im following the Script But when a heart breaks It doesnt break even
Im trying to fix the problem asking questions like what, how, who
Cause I always knew that the best part of me was you
I had a plan for us but you left before time
Thoughts, memeories, fun
Im in deep, your images never leave my mind
She left me scattered and undone
And went to find another as easy as quiting a game at recess
Now Im left all alone to try to put back the pieces

Still iN Love

How can I live, How can I be without
What can I do, I gave you all I can give, I cant believe you have doubt
You wanted space and I gave you space
You wanted time and I gave it to you for all decisions you had to make
You wanted happiness and I took away all the breathe you can take
Yet you drift further away like a boat lost at sea
Maybe the problem is more than just me
because I picked you up when you were at the bottom feeling weak
And I was the reason you reached your peak
Yet you see through me like I'm transparent to your world
You moved past US like my touch never slowed you down
My unhappiness, my stress, my confusion meant nothing
Your happiness, your smile, your fun
Without words said it's just done
Like every realtionship you being a FIRST was my fear
To your happiness you were the First to make me shed a tear

Fading Away

Fading away from the earth faster with each waking second
With each new found thought about my world that I think is deep
The world spins faster and I get weak
With each new sentence I write
With every new emotion shown
I can just feel myself face up with my eyes close
With every kodak moment that I want to keep
Reality sets in and I get closer to my eternal sleep
And just as a calm river flows
My words bleed threw paper like that of a bleeding rose
And the deeper I get to finally understanding the complex contents of my mind
The earth spins faster and I can feel the world leaving me behind

Cant be Real

I wake up in a daze where, where am I
Starting to make out images and i realize im hooked up to all types of machines
Am i OK what could be wrong with me
the doctor enters the room with what I presume to be X-rays
He puts them up and questions me
Can you tell me whats missing he says
Im not the smartest man in the world but everything looks ok
But we both know Im not ok
With all the pain and emotion in the world i Feel lucky and I make it known
The best thing in my life was when I finally realized it was gone
No more will I care about anyone elses health
No more will I breathe one with another persons breathe
Just from acouple of X-rays the doctor knows my world is dark
All the doctor degrees in the world cant explain how I can live without a heart