Falling Apart

Letting go my love is easier said then done
It's not like you can tell your heart to stop
Starting to figure out why death is so easy
We came undone without reason
im following the Script But when a heart breaks It doesnt break even
Im trying to fix the problem asking questions like what, how, who
Cause I always knew that the best part of me was you
I had a plan for us but you left before time
Thoughts, memeories, fun
Im in deep, your images never leave my mind
She left me scattered and undone
And went to find another as easy as quiting a game at recess
Now Im left all alone to try to put back the pieces

Still iN Love

How can I live, How can I be without
What can I do, I gave you all I can give, I cant believe you have doubt
You wanted space and I gave you space
You wanted time and I gave it to you for all decisions you had to make
You wanted happiness and I took away all the breathe you can take
Yet you drift further away like a boat lost at sea
Maybe the problem is more than just me
because I picked you up when you were at the bottom feeling weak
And I was the reason you reached your peak
Yet you see through me like I'm transparent to your world
You moved past US like my touch never slowed you down
My unhappiness, my stress, my confusion meant nothing
Your happiness, your smile, your fun
Without words said it's just done
Like every realtionship you being a FIRST was my fear
To your happiness you were the First to make me shed a tear

Fading Away

Fading away from the earth faster with each waking second
With each new found thought about my world that I think is deep
The world spins faster and I get weak
With each new sentence I write
With every new emotion shown
I can just feel myself face up with my eyes close
With every kodak moment that I want to keep
Reality sets in and I get closer to my eternal sleep
And just as a calm river flows
My words bleed threw paper like that of a bleeding rose
And the deeper I get to finally understanding the complex contents of my mind
The earth spins faster and I can feel the world leaving me behind

Cant be Real

I wake up in a daze where, where am I
Starting to make out images and i realize im hooked up to all types of machines
Am i OK what could be wrong with me
the doctor enters the room with what I presume to be X-rays
He puts them up and questions me
Can you tell me whats missing he says
Im not the smartest man in the world but everything looks ok
But we both know Im not ok
With all the pain and emotion in the world i Feel lucky and I make it known
The best thing in my life was when I finally realized it was gone
No more will I care about anyone elses health
No more will I breathe one with another persons breathe
Just from acouple of X-rays the doctor knows my world is dark
All the doctor degrees in the world cant explain how I can live without a heart